To the people who I am close to,
the people who are important to me,
I've never written crap like this. Neither I am I good at all this pathetic mushy stuff. N i tried to turn the text white but it dint work. I don't find writing things straight from the heart very easy. I usually write made up stuff because i think my lies seem more interesting. This ones honest and I hope with the low amount of traffic on this blog, that no one reads this post except to the people I meant to address.
I had a sudden understand yesterday that I do not have anyone of own blood who had ever come close in satisfying me in life. You all have helped me, understood me, feelings, philosophy, nonsensical things, all those things, many things, more important those things like money and status.
You could say, that I had depended on all of you all these years because there weren't many to. And you may not realize it, but i have exaggerated your roles because there aren't any others. And you all are the only family i have. I know this because i stick to you all and no one else.
But i also know that you all have your own group of friends and other things do. And You all do not depend on me as much as I do. So, thats why I try to less to be clingy and no be too annoying. What is the position would you give me amongst all your friends. Sometimes I want to talk, I just look at your skype and not call. I not saying this in a way that you all have not treat me well enough, that I am afraid that I'll be nuisance to you. But i know you have you own life to live and I too have learned to be more independent when you are not around. This is my problem, my own disability and i should have to go through it on my own too.
There was something you said recently. But I think that you should not judge others and not like like them because of the stupid things they do. I too do things that may be stupid in the eyes of different people. But, understand that some people don't know how to be nice and don't mean to cause any dislikes. They have their own deep and unknown reasons which may be developed from years and years and it is not easy that they change their ways. So, we can't judge by a person their out look. To some extend every one is worth liking if you understand them well enough. Besides, I think that it is nice that there is a variety of characteristics of different people. It makes life more interesting that way, the good and the bad. Which in someways makes you ok to be annoyed by those things too and I know that you were just in a bad mood. But I just wanted you to know these things too.
You are all important to me and enjoy the times.
From your anonymous friend.
